Only in pain if I try to control

You make a wave in me

that is never ending

I’ve been stilted

never sending

You generate a crest in me

that never breaks

I worry that it never will

unless another lifetime

it takes.

You leave and I let you

I push you, high-bank you

“for your own good”

“Deserves a higher level than this”

that’s what my ego keeps saying

when I let god go amiss

’cause I keep trying to control this

to make the best ending for you

I’m caught at the peak

of a catch-22

flooding through my gills

Never truly wanting

to say goodbye to you

like you’re half my soul

and then I see you gasping on dry land

like you were not the totality

of the wave in me

after all.

.

I wish for you a freer fish

but the wave keeps building

The wave says,

“No”

to my desire

for control; and so

through my body

I let the crest

roll

We’re ever together

Ever apart

I catch your

earth-eye gaze;

its mystery I gather

and tender, gasping

hold

.

like it’s a prayer

for

hello

.

.

.

8 thoughts on “Only in pain if I try to control

        1. Wow… yes… that’s what I try to do around here, too. 🌱🌤💧 Love your philosophy, it matches the good grooves. 🎶 And again, thank you!! 🙏🙏🌟💕

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          1. Okay lia, how about this exercise in poetry, I will give you three words and lets see if ot inspires you to write a short poem, just for a laugh, the three words are , envelope, shoes, trapdoor. I hope you can play along with a bit of fun.

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            1. Having a bit of a rough day, J.; hope you’ll forgive the winge ;)) the forgoing of this particular fun, and my not playing along. Sincere best wishes, and thanks for the offer; live kind and prosper 🖖💖🔆

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              1. Very sorry for your rough day, i hope nothing too serious, if I can help you in any way then please don’t hesitate to ask, best wishes for you and your family, some other time for the poem challenge, no worries my friend.

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